MAPLEEE :D !!

im back in my new acc Yuumin !

Cleric with a long long time to chiong

- basically i slacked too much -

so least on updates :(

I WANT TON AT LAN

SOMEONE PEI ME

THANKS :D

NIGHTS !

cya guys <3

I missed those times when you were with me 

i miss everything about you when you were with me

now im trying hard not to cry but i cant

why did we have to end like this ?

sorry guys , will update about aaron's birthday another time

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mornings wont be like any mornings
bedtime wont be like any goodnights
kisses wont be the same anymore
hugs are more meaningful when you are here
having fun while you are there will change
games between us are different
words like these wont mean a thing to you


i've been crying ever since i go it
i think its a painful thing but i still let him go
i didnt want it to end like this
my heart feels so much pain
i really cant stop crying

next time when i see you
i'll cry for each memory
i'll cry for each hug
i'll cry for each sentence i say
cause i really cant let you go

Heyys :D

wondering why that title ?

Today me and the guides were having outdoor cooking :D

And we cook for the seniors too ! Graduation cooking LOL

So its like , we have to dig up a square hole

Our patrol went to search up for twigs and leaves

Cause Huiyin said we have to be " nature enviromental friendly cause we are guides !

totally cannot use solid fuel "

In the end i think we killed them LOL

They said they bounded off the field so that they can grow the grass

apparently we killed them LOL totally

So when we were starting a fire and cooking the food

one junior was like " we are killing the plants instead of being enviromental friendly " 

super sia ! then halfway when our food almost finish cooking

Huiyin was like " GUIDES ! WHO NEEDS SOLID FUEL ? " 

LOL ! Say enviromental friendly , this also can XD

but ended up i took a cover and started fanning the fire

so the whole " soup " was being boiled

like super cool lah !

Afterthat we went to eat :D

then clean up and WHEE !

So yeas XD

I love the seniors for coming back

I love my juniors for helping out 

I pity the field we killed 

LOL okay gotta end

Cya guys <3

Super random title cause of photo o.o

i wanna blog . SO I BLOG ABOUT MY ANGER CAUSE I DONT WANNA GO AIKIDO ):

FYI , Aikido is a form of Japanese Martial Arts thats of Defence .

Apparently , I'm in adult class , the youngest .

Sec 3 :D , 2nd youngest is JC final year >:(

stupid yes i know -.- didnt figure that i entered adult class

Too busy to think D:

Havent finish the taobao batches - iz too lazi -

Campfire works yet to hand up . - finding -

CLASS OUTING NO ON REPLY D: - hurt -

So i didnt really get to do much .

Playing maple - guilty -

I want updates on horoscope o.o

I wonder those anyone reads this blog at all ? oAo

i absoloutely fuckingly wants my photoshop

RAWR UNCLE !!!

k im bored now ._.

someone talk to me ?

Cya guys <3

all i want is just your time to know that i love you , is that so hard ?

sometimes i sit down and think of the replies i am going to give

so that you might reply alot , rather than "okay "

everytime i think about it , i felt like crying like now .

the times we had was remarkable

it was only you and me and the crowd

but the crowd did little or no effect on us

first few times of us being together i cried

not that i dont want to be with you

just that the words you said hurt me

then helped you open up 

share with me what happened

that was when you would tell me everything 

from head to toe i would know

cause it was just you and me

then it camed to the third week

you slowly started to reduce your words

or practically no words at all

i was afraid

afraid i might lose you

afraid of everything

that day 

i sneaked the letter into your bag

who would have knew when the rehearsals were over

you said these few words

the few words that made me cry

cry until my heart felt painful

cry until i couldnt stand it but cry

i felt remorseful

i felt pain

i felt the lost of someone important

thats when they helped

my seniors helped

but even so my heart hurted so much

then you decided we should stay

but i couldnt help but cry

i want to hug you

you wouldnt let

days pass and i felt happy

but soon , your words decreased

everytime i tried to tell you

but i ended up restoring to letter writing

not that i love to write

just that you would know how i felt

until you saw it

our 2nd month anniversery

weeks closing onto our exams date

i pulled few friends out

just to follow me to buy your present

i was low on cash that time

but i really wanted to buy it

so i used my savings

hoping my parents wouldn't knew

i wrapped it up and wrote a letter

got my fingers cut in the process of wrapping

and alot of scoldings here and there

but i dont care 

cause all i want was this present to go to you

perfectly and meaningfully

the last paper i fell sick

i couldnt think of it

my mind was blank

with nothing inside but rest

i planned to ask my dad

to fetch me from school

but i knew i had to pass you the gift

i made my way to the floor

i sat down and rest my head

and my weak body

falling asleep

you woke me up

i passed you the gift

as i was about to leave

you pulled me back

and hugged me

i wanted to cry so badly

i wanted to let it stay forever

i didnt want to let you go

but you had to leave

i had to see the doctors

i just left 

i felt sad

as if something left me

i felt pain

now as i sit here and typed this 

and cry at every paragraph

i wonder ,

are you still reading my sms 

getting angry and stuff then

you start to not reply

or 

are you thinking about it

but i knew you wouldn't cry about it

you aren't like me

you wouldn't cry because of theses memories

cause you are occupied with your work

its the major year for you

right ?

i cried too much leaving my tears dried up on my face

i should have asked the doctor for more pills

to my poor running nose 

if i knew i will type this

so fare thee well to the end of this post

till then , maybe now , maybe never

maybe next time .

Love ,

Girlfriend ♥

Moodswings - inserts imnothappy face - Super irregular cycle

Maybe i should seek doctor's attention about it >:(

Too tired these few days , school anniversary just ended last thursday . 

Ain't that fun , stood there just to hear Mdm Ernie say " he is now at eunos primary " 

That day also marked the day of our seniors graduation in CCA

Now secondary 3 has to take over , I feel too tired to even bother

No kidding , trying hard not to sleep .

But by 5pm i felt tired , yet i chose not to sleep , not even a nap .

My tummy hurts from my period cramps . I cant sleep well at night , i keep tossing and turning and waking up

to check the time . 3am , perfect , and i got many hours before i need to wake up , why now ?

I fall asleep and get woken up by my mum , knowing its not even time for me to wake up

Period sure gives you tired days , I wish i could sleep but i cant .

Tuition teachers wont allow me to .

School could , but it won't help . I need to sleep in my trip at genting .

Moodswings still doesnt help , it makes my cramps worst . 

I had to scream into my pillow this afternoon to make it go away

I need a new phone , new clothes , new hair do -.-

Stupid fringe , so ... bangs like .

Gosh . I swear , june holidays will be the day i will change everything in my life .

Cause i cant stand how my room is like ! My mum's items are in my room and i hate it !

I'll be going on starvation these few days for money .

Not only for one items , more than 1 items .

But i dont know , find a job in june again ? I wouldn't mind .

I guess i better catch some shut eye now .

Nights everyone !

Cya guys <3

2NE1 ! Loving this song ever since i saw their MV played on kTV

Refreshed of memory on audition song 

Super nice i swear , plus their eng sub ver is dam nice

Esp minzy's section . CL and Dara has nice parts too xD

Dara's part was in school and CL was in a club

I'm not sure about Bom's o_o

OH WELLS ! Learning run devil run , this video danced by a white skinned person was awesome !

Alrights , back to watching Ip Man !

Cya guys <3